Forces that push and pull. Two polar opposites. My heart has seemed to fallen into the trenches. In dead man’s land. Unable to leave, stuck between feeling two ways.
I am noticed. Not as just another person but as an individual. A person that sees through all my faces and masks. A person that does not fear the unknown and darkness. They were enticed and could understand who I was. The sacrifices I made. The effort I put in. And the mindset that I carry. The person looked at me with open eyes filled with wonder. The person I deem worth smiling for.
The worst enemy you can meet will always be yourself. Conflicting thoughts and the grey area between needs and want to need. In which one knows what consequently needs to be done but we want a different response that benefits our wants without compromising our needs.
Every door that opens another door closes. Very cliché I know. In this circumstance I know that sacrifices have to be made.
I am filled with many flaws and I tend to make decisive decisions even though I ended up switching them and contemplating. But recently. I keep myself completely accountable and dont try to fix situations. Once a decision is done before I start second guessing. I keep myself accountable for what I did in that instance. As I said if one door opens another closes so the path I chose, I chose for a reason. there is always a path to salvation.
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