There was this one flower that i saw and as i gazed uponed it. I felt a attraction that was relentless and compulsing.

I cant stop looking at them and when i was around them it hit my core because it felt like they brought something to me.

They wete special to me world like how the moon needs the ocean and how the earth needs the sun. One cant live without the other.

I realised that there is a time and a place for everything and now just wasn’t the time. They had these demanding qualities that made them so appealing and flavourful. But sometimes you just have to hold yourself back.

Its sad because they actually mattered and without them i find it difficult to continue living without talking to them. Without them i am nothing and i wake up thinking of them and i end my day thinking of them. They make me complete but i have things that i prioritize before them.

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Do you sometimes you just have to allow people in without guessing why they are.

I chose to let people in and i appreciate them because they proved themselves to matter to me. They are not the sharpest tools in the shed but they are the most reliable.

I am forever grateful for them because to me they are irreplaceable and can’t be replicated. I love them with all my heart and i will tell them.

Just the other day i helped my friend with a task that would determine her career and i also found myself turn back to some old thoughts and how much they actually mattered.

I just want them to know that i actuallu cherish them and without them i am nothing because they make my daily life. They create the smile on my face that cant be replaced because it serves them.

They always give me a reason to smile and a reason to push. Because to me there opinions matter.

So sometimes you have to learn things from the most unorthodox of places.

I learnt to keep things exclusive as when you tell people your life and they just peer into your life.They can cause unnecessary conflict between people.

I realised that with people that you genuinely care about it shouldn’t matter to others how it is seen.

I have learnt through my brief leisure time that I dont need others to be involved in my complications or interactions.

No, I am not embarassed of who I am with ,but I don’t need any bothersome confrontations, and people that I associate myself with are important to me and make my world spin.

The vitality and cherishment i get from them is enough to push me to achieve greatness and excellence. I am dealing with more than enough and for my own well being and their safety i need to keep personal life private and exclusive.

Some people are worth moving mountains and others are just there to add weights and create scars.

I believe in the ones that offer me harmony and pleasure knowing that they can create a better life for themselves and myself.  They are the ones who offer support and help create reconciliation, above all happiness.

It is that special time of year where one’s mood is just uplifted as it is the season for giving, but in most cases its all about receiving.

I find it comedic how people can put on a especially positive face on this day for the love and applause from others. It is the day of truce and is filled with brave faces hiding termoils.

However I like the idea of giving and not always receiving. It communicates a sense of community and unity. To look passed peoples inequalities as on this day everyone is indifferent.

How I would like to commemorate this day is through change and reconnection. It is to find others again without being estranged to change. To continue ahead with authenticity and transparency as manner of refurbished growth. To be grateful for what we had, what we have and for what we will achieve.

To everyone: Enjoy your day of truce and appreciation.

It has been a while since I’ve written something ,but I have made a eye opening discovery for myself.

Even the strongest of people have the softest hearts. It may sound like a generic line ,but I choose not to believe in things until I see them. I encountered a mesmorising creature with such a hostile exterior ,built of scars and insecurities. I was intimidated by the sight of its gaze as my soul was being seen through and judged upon.

With the courage in my blood and pursuit in my soul, I dare challenged the serpant in hopes of overcoming its grasp of my heart. I broke through its clenched fists and wanted to end it once and for all.

As I looked down upon it, I saw the weakness and fragility in its core, realising its hardships and sorrow. I broke down from my boarish state and succumbed to lust and savagery as if i were finding the worlds richest mine. Through the experience i garnered a sense of guilty and a sense of longing that Ive yet to feel again.

This frail creature opened themselves up to me and I was about to devour them. I wanted to leave my barbaric livilyhood in hopes of finding harmony with someone who has shown there weakest self. I feel deeply at fault and want to resolve my problem as I seek redemption for my past sins and short comings.

Have you ever wondered what it’s like to meet a soulmate?How will you know you met them?What does that feel like?

I want to say that it’s a deep rooted feeling of completion. Being content and at the same time having this overflowing amount joy. You dont even have to physically have to be attracted to the person but it’s the persons personality that just has you in a trance.

There are no facades or any indication of deception, but the raw expression of emotions and honesty. I undergone such a experience every recently where i casually spoke to this person and immediately I felt a spark. It pulsed throughout my body feeling as if something overcame me.

I did not feel the need to hide my myself and or my thoughts. I felt accepted before anything was said. As the conversation continued I grew accustom to the persons thoughts and emotions. I realised that a felt a similar feeling from somewhere that just felt right.

And then it hit me. It was a former version of myself and this person naturally had everything that I used to be. Through her just be open, it lured me in this blissful state of ecstasy. Although we came from two completely different backgrounds. I knew that this was my soulmate and someone that I have never come across yet. I felt completed and whole. I’ve smiled more times than I have in the past year all in this single moment.

Someone who imprinted themselves in my head. Knowing that they will have my heart and my support. Maybe one day I’ll meet her.

So I don’t really know what to say to many people that might help them. All I can say is that, to many I seem like I am always on top of the world and happy. To be honest I am just as sad, anxious and everso searching for that purpose to get up and do something fulfilling.

I also having that underlining feeling of anguish and inferiority. I feel as if I having a gaping whole in my chest that leaks out emptiness and longing. Truth is I blame myself for everything that occurs and putting up a front for many. I am unhappy with my own progress and my inability to actually do something about it due to my own lack of resolve.

I put all problems that surround environment on myself and let it way on me in my silence. I choose to be selfish so others can see that valuable things that they have in life. I put myself under all these harsh conditions as I seek validation for my actions from the ones that I value, at the end of the day we all just wish to be noticed.

That simple act of being acknowledged is enough to push anyone to succeed. Unfortunately I was never one who had many role models in my life, who I could turn to for inspiration or guidance. The few figures I had, were all torn away from me, snipped from life and I guess that caused me to resent myself for not being able appreciate them more and truly show my gratitude.

Even as I’m writing this, there are so many people out there that I genuinely think are amazing and it makes me happy to be apart of their lives as I can offer them some guidance that was out of my reach. I say this with a heavy heart but I will never be able to let people into my heart with comfort and affirmation. It seems that my wounds are too deep to recover. I will never hold it against anyone and I’ll always be there to reconcile with others but only as a tattered shield and not a maternal home.

This piece is all about knowing that others feel the same and even if you cant put it into words, just know that those feels that you have, you dont have to harbor them alone. Reach out to others before it’s too late to recover from your wounds.

I wonder if we take our circumstances for granted not fully realizing the lives we live are a luxury for better or worse.

Not witnessing that there are many who are unable to be blessed enough to embrace the light that we are privileged to see, but is this really a blessing, only being able to see the light that rises from infront of us. Only knowing one way to live without witnessing the darkness ,where others do not see light.

Well I envy those who can never reach the light, who can only see the blessed flourish from below. They adapt to their circumstances, they withstand the horrid and ferocious abyss in which they can never escape. They see value in mundane things and view the norms of the divine with sustenance and awe.

With the ability to truly see things for what they are ,but the inability to reach their dreams, for being imprisoned in destituture and solitude. Truly a exquisite indistinct pack of people.

Everso restricted to staying in the cycle of hardship until one stray journeys it’s way out of the barren land into the fruitful meadow to see the ravishing light and embrace the divinity.

Now that is a life that is worth living, to be blessed is the ability to be to experience both livelihoods.

Have you ever looked back on your life and realised that your fondest memories are the ones that you have made with others?

A chain is only as strong as it’s weakest link. A person can achieve the impossible, only to realise that with no one to witness it, it carries no value. People say that we are shaped by the people who we surround ourselves with.

It is always important to socialise,to keep in a contact with those closest. It may be for confinement, relaxation, or simply for ecstasy. Human interaction is what makes us human. The ability to connect on a spiritual and emotional level with others through memories and experiences which creates a sense of emotional combustion.

Human are paired with one another from birth connected through physical and emotional actions. We blind ourselves to the truth that we do not need others. Blatantly ignoring the negative occurtions that affect our mental wellbeing and state of mind.

We allow our greed to take over our minds and end up loving in this psyche of selfishness. Never allowing us to be true to ourselves. We believe in this pipe dream that we can conquer all with enough knowledge, skill, and experience.

We have to open ourselves to the possibility of communication, inspiration and overall consideration. To be comfortable with those closest to us, to learn for those who are above us and to enjoy success with those around us.

It is important to keep healthy relationship with people. It allows for you to learn more about others and yourself through experiences. The connection that you feel with people can never be replicated and can always be recovered. The only question is if you are going to reach out?.

I know that it’s been a long time since many of my readers have heard from me, but I am just here to express how I am currently doing.

Things have been rough and as cliche as it seems. Time is of the essence. This year seems to be moving faster than I can anticipate. I am just trying to stay sane. The pandemic issue is not making any progress so I can assume that many of you might feel uneasy.

Life has thrown a few curve balls my way and I’m still trying to wrap my head around most of them. One thing that us as humans are good at no matter how vast and different we are. It is the ability to adapt to our environment and encompass it into our own lifestyles and ways of life.

I am proud to say that I am astonished by the people of this day and age that seek growth and initiative. I just followed up on a person who has defied all odds and even though they did not win the entirety of the war, the won the battle that will lay the foundation for others. They set an exemplary figure for alot of young people. To push on and believe in themselves, to not compare themselves but to strengthen their own uniqueness and affinities that they represent.

They opened my eyes to my life and my opportunities that only I can fulfill and accomplish. I have gotten the strength to be a person who will be the very best at being myself and completing the necessary steps in become the person that I want to be.

I want to be a beacon of hope for all the young people who feel pressured to be something that they are not, the people that are afraid that they wont be able to handle their gifts and responsibilities. The people who fear the insecurities.

I was not a person who was fond of writing. I was afraid of criticism and how people would view my writing. I was afraid to be judged.

You won’t know how you will do if you do not try. I have tried excelling myself in areas that I was afraid of stepping in.

I was proven wrong at all corners where I saw threats and weaknesses. I have achieved more and created memories for myself that have turned into my motivation to encourage others to overcome their fears as I have mine.

I have treated people as how I wanted to be treated and as they say you attract like minded people. Those are now the people that I can depend on. I’m not saying that there wont be casualties but I am saying if you focus on your own weakness and areas where you lack the necessary aptitude, you’ll naturally gain the people that you need in your life.

With that I will end off my piece with these words from Leon C. Megginson. “It is not the strongest or the most intelligent who will survive but the one who can best manage change.”