No matter how hard I try to remember her, her face stays in one constant expression
It brings me sadness as I cannot picture her in any other manner but profoundly beautiful…
I start my day thinking of her and my night dreaming of her
She has granted me new life, something to look forward to
She has allowed me to reach all my goals, but with a heavy heart, she is the one thing that I cannot reach
The closer I get, the more I burn
It truly is a cold feeling.
She brought the warmth back into my heart, but the more I want to nurture the warmth, the colder my heart begins to feel
She is everything I choose to live for and everything I do not want to lose
With great loss is even greater life
I wish I could truly understand that
Everytime I am around her my heart feels like it could jump out of my chest and my face begins to grin, she makes me whole in that moment that I am with her
All my problems disappear and I only want to live in the now
She brings colour into my life and without her, everything is just black and white

I do anything just to see her smile.

I am not perfect but I can be the exception.

It is amazing to dream of things that could have been. However it begins to turn into heartache once you realise how futile that is.

Snow is a wonder that comes when one does not expect it to come. It brings dreams to reality, whether it is only for that short while or everlasting.

I have been running from my demons continuing to move forward and think towards the future. I was fortunate enough to have experience snow for the second time in my life. It might have been short lived, but I enjoyed it. It came with its challenges but was always fascinating. Not the easiest to hold nor the most practical. It made me happy that I could see it in its few forms before it faded away.

It was something that I could have fun with and indulge doing leisure activities. Those moments remain with me as strong memories expressing fun and intimacy with the exception of being open to all possibilities and where they could lead me.

The exploration through the unknown brought about excitement and adrenaline. It was something that I once believed that I could keep to myself. The sad conclusion is that it was there for everyone to share and enjoy.

The one thing that I know for certain is that I will always have hope for our next encounter…

It is the feeling of connecting with that someone and a completely different vibe like they just know what to say,whether you are hurting or overjoyed. Thats love. They are the one thing that makes you whole. Almost like you haven’t been living until you met them.

We see love being illustrated throughout our lives whether it be in movies,books or in art. Ever since we were young ,we have probably wondered what it feels like to be cared about, to be cherished , to be loved. Not the love that your parents give you, or the kind of that is given from your closest friends but a very specific love.

The love can only be shared between you and a special someone.The love that gets you flustered just thinking about them.It’s the kind of love that makes you get up everyday. The love that makes you want to be a better person. The love that motivates you to push through when things get tough.The love that will never die. And that is true love.

Unfortunately we don’t always know when we have it or lose it, because things like this take time. We cant just meet people and proclaim that its love. We say that we have a gut feeling and that even like each other. This doesn’t necessary mean it’s true love. This takes a lot of emotional as well as physical commitment just to find out whether it’s meant to be. Even if you are in a good place in your relationship ,you always have that thought at the back of your mind. When will this spark die out… Its a question we aren’t fond of but know is inevitable.

And if you have someone you like or even love,invest yourself whole heartedly and be patient as it strengthens your relationship and reinforces your connection whether you believe it or not.

Love can be a feeling but can be proven through time and sacrifice. It will pay off for the ones who persevere. Only through hardships can the wonders of life be discovered.

Even if you feel that this connection wont last forever ,cherish that person with all your heart because love conquers all and might even bloom again. As long as there is hope and a will anything is possible.

So even if you dont meet them now or someone broke your heart doesn’t mean you should give up. Drive is what keeps us going and knowing that there is someone for all of us should be the reason to keep on going and if you are in a relationship or starting of in one ,always be there for them ,be the rock that shelters them from harm and take on all challenges that head your way. Your will have highs and have lows but it’s up to you to remember what you are fighting for and to dig deep and move forward. Even if its only one step at a time. That the start of a truly beautiful relationship.

Patience and Perseverance is key. It builds trust and more important lasting love.

All of us know the feeling of having eyes on us. That people have their own impressions of us whether it is positive or negative. Everyone has their own views and you might be someone’s star or someone’s Lucifer.

We choose to hold perspectives close to heart when it comes making friends and meeting people. It defines whether you are popular or a outsider. With perspective comes rumors. These make or break you. One silly rumor could mean the end of you even if it’s true or not. People are quick to judge and just decide to follow the herd as being singled out could feel like a eternity of depression and sadness.

Is it really important to be everyones favourite or to be independent and different. Perspective is a neutral concept where you can change everyone’s opinion of you with just a act or achievement.

It’s important not to forget about your surroundings as eyes are always on you and wont hesitate to pounce on a opportunity to slander your name or whoever you represent. Perspectives are important but they shouldnt control the way you present yourself or act. You should be able to express yourself freely without any judgement.

We all want to go through life carefree and want to have no worries or responsibility. We do try to turn a blind eye on the consequences that are coming our way. While we think this is the cool thing to do ,its not. We should hold our accountable for our own actions.

Today, On the first of February I learnt it the hard way and I’m probably the worst human being alive if I can even call myself human. Was so irresponsible enough to leave a 4 week old puppy alone at home while I enjoyed hanging with my friends. When I got back she was missing and I tried telling myself it’s not my fault ,while I should’ve kept myself accountable and should’ve told my friends that it was fine and that I would stay.

A warm hearted, and adventurous pup went missing on my name and under my supervision. I am the one who was suppose to take care of my dog and me just knowing the fact that she doesn’t like being alone, shakes me to my core thinking of what fear he must’ve been going through.

People might tell you that it wasnt your fault or that you couldn’t have done anything shouldnt mean that you shouldnt keep yourself accountable.You should stand up and take responsibility for actions no matter if you did it directly or indirectly. You were the one that chose to be careless or just what as it happened so you should keep yourself accountable and whoever might be with you. It happened on your watch. Even if it didnt turn out as bad as you thought ,it could be worse and we shouldnt allow there to be next times cause next time it wont be the same.

We should forgive ourselves and rather not think how hard it was for us to lose but to look forward and ensure that we are better. That we dont allow the same thing happen to others. We shouldnt be the ones that just stand by as things continue the way they are if we know that they are bad.We shouldnt just stand by and look the other way and rather take responsibility for what happens no matter how dangerous it looks or how bad it sounds we should take that stand cause no one will.

We should keep ourselves accountable for what happens around us.

It’s a feeling that can only be described as heart wrenching. A feeling that can change you as a person. It feels like a anchor keeping you to the soil called uncertainty. It’s probably a feeling that we all are familiar with whether it may be something we have kept from our parents,siblings or friends. Guilt.

We tell ourselves that it’s for the greater good or for the right reasons,that it’s for the best. All because we do not want to hurt the feelings of the ones we hold dear or their image of us,because impressions are everything.

Even though we all have our reasons ,it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s the right thing to do ,as it keeps us from moving forward. We begin to feel shackled in our guilt and use lies to cope with everything. This feeling wont dissappear ,its almost like a incurable disease which can only be treated until the source is removed or consumes everything.

I’m not saying that telling the truth will solve every problem. I have a lot of things that I am guilty of, things that I wish I could undo,things that i would to do differently but telling the truth would be the best way to start moving forward. Things such as trust might be wounded but can heal overtime. Feelings will be hurt but that’s only temporary.

Courage and confidence is something that we all lack and plays a key role in whether we want to be set free from ours shackles or be sunk deeper into the abyss. It’s never easy to overcome guilt and wont ever be but getting it off your chest now would be better than hurting people’s feelings when they find out.

Take things one step at a time and be honest with the ones closest to you. Sacrifices will have to be made but if they are worth it ,they will understand and it will also bring peace of mind to you. Choose to move forward rather then reminiscing about the mistakes you made in the past. Its a tough burden to withstand and it only gets heavier the longer you keep it.

Since each of us go through highschool alone ,we all look for companions.Could be the athletes,cool kids or the punks.We long to be apart of something without necessary looking at the pro’s and cons. This is where are morals are put to the test. Whether they put their pride and innocents above friends.

When we are with our ‘peers’ we struggle to see the line between what’s right and what’s wrong. We all get drawn into making bad decisions such as drinking ,smoking or unprotected sex,etc. We sacrifice so much just to get the approval of our ‘friends’ or acceptance of them…And just so you know this isn’t how friendship should work.Everyone should be on equal terms and should have a say whether or not they want to do something.You should be able to make your own choice and the freedom to do whatever you feel comfortable doing. Your life shouldn’t be controlled around what your friends think you should do or want you to do.

No one succeeds the first time, so even if they are the first friends you’ve had in highschool ,they dont neccesarily have to be the friends you have in the end.Me for example, has had different friend groups each year and soon you discover your real friends along they way.Im grade 11 now and I’m still not sure they are my real friends but for the moment they are what I call friends.

They dont have to be the best listeners or the most athletic or even the funniest. As long as they are there for you when you need them and accept you for who you are,flaws and all,then they are your ride or die.Those are the people you keep close to you and cherish.They will be the ones that will support you every step of the way ,physically or in spirit on whatever wacky thing you might want to take on.There arent alot like them out there,they are a very special breed and quite difficult to find and once you have them.Its for keeps.They will be your friends till the end.

In the end ,dont put up a facade to impress others and stay true to your morals.Friends come and go. Real friends are the ones that arent worth losing.Youll know when you find them.Its a feeling that’s similar to love, it’s a connection that is unbreakable and can withstand even the most unbearable hardships.Those are true friends.

We all go through hardships and might have heard the words: never give up,always another way,there’s hope. Well at some point all of us have to know enough is enough.

Acceptance is a difficult concept to understand. Knowing that you have to be okay with how things are and just giving up or letting go. Whether it’s in relationships and you have to let your partner go and stop fighting or it’s at a funeral of a loved one who passed away and you can’t let go of them or the memories you made.

Even though it’s sad and difficult we all have to know when to give up. We shouldn’t put ourselves through all the guilt ,depression and sadness just because we let go.We are only going to make things difficult for ourselves and make life complicated. It’s never easy to admit defeat ,but we each have to make great sacrifices for the greater good or for the beautiful things in life. It might be difficult to understand but to lose the war will bring peace to world.

What I’m trying to say is you can’t get everything your way every time and just because you don’t succeed doesn’t mean you should have to beat yourself up. I experienced this in my life but I was fortunate enough to have a friend to speak to who helped me realise that it was okay to give up. Just because things did not go your way or reach your expectations does not mean you should be depressed. You should not give up on life just because of one mishap. Its okay to give up and move forward with life without making any inconvenience for someone else.

I’m not saying it wont hurt ,it definitely will but you should always look towards the end goal.If it’s someone you love or care about ,you would want to see them happy and not mopping around and being depressed just because you dont want to let them go.If you were mourning about the dead ,be considerate of them because they want you to mourn but you need to move on with life and not let them put it on hold.

I’m not saying this will happen immediately but acceptance will help you in the long run as it allows you to move on with your life and not put it on hold. It is a positive thing not only for yourself but other as well. It is like a double-edged sword.You have to give up on the things you cherish most to open up to more room for growth and opportunity.

I’m a high schooler and many students such as myself are at this point of our highschool careers go through tough times.We all go through highschool alone and that’s the only way we know how to move forward. There is nothing wrong with having individualist ideals and aspirations but at some point we have to realise that we can only get so far alone, because change is inevitable.

Recently I’ve begun to see this change after hearing a very inspiration metaphor.

We are all one winged birds and all we can do is hide under trees just yearning to soar the skys above us. Only after we unite as one can we soar.

Even though we feel we can take any challenge on ,we can’t we arent made to be perfect and in this fragile state teenagers are in, they feel the need to prove themselves and dont trust many. This is because they are controlled by fear and anxiety.

It might be difficult but we should always remember that there are people that will support and guide us. I’m not saying that change is easy ,but unless you allow people in you cant prosper. Only together can we truly achieve anything. Make the impossible possible. This can be applied at with friends,family,work and at school. Whether or not you are the one getting help or the other. It allows you to open up with one another and strengthen bonds. You don’t have to change who you are but rather be open minded towards the fact that people are there for you and that you are not alone.